A Year From Now

I wish I could peek into my future -- a year from today -- and see what life will be like 5-6 months after surgery.

It seems every day I find myself thinking, "I can't wait until I'm skinnier"....and I daydream about how much different, how much better I'll feel and how much easier it will be to get dressed, to work out, to be me.

Every day after work, and on most recent weekends, I have been so so lazy, almost lethargic -- just no energy to do anything other than sleep or sit on the couch and watch TV. I am hoping once I get healthier that I will have a lot more energy after work and on the weekend.

In a year from now -- 12/29/2014 -- I hope to be below 200 lbs...so a loss of around 40 lbs would be amazing. I remember what it felt like to be about 200 and although that is still 50 lbs overweight, I felt great!

I make lists in my head about what won't fit anymore when I lose all my weight. I'll have to get my rings sized down, all of my beautiful shoes may not fit anymore, all of my clothes will be too baggy to look right at all. I'll have to buy new bras and panties (darn!), and I will be more comfortable in airplane seats. I have read that my hair may fall out some, so I have some biotin coming in the mail to start now. Hey I don't mind if my hair gets longer!