Shit got real

Ok, I have to write in good times and in bad.

Most weigh-ins were in the 180s, then in the last two weeks I have been in the 190s, and most recently 192 and change.  So guess what -- when I lost weight years ago, it creeped creeped creeped back on -- teeny tiny bit at a time -- until I had no idea what happened.

I'm not letting that happen again.  So I'm trying like hell to "get back to basics" -- walking, getting my protein in, getting my water in.  Friday and Saturday I didn't have any coffee.  Today I made a coffee but drank 2/3 of it.  It just didn't taste as good as I remember.  Which is weird.  But good.

So I am struggling to make more healthier choices than not, to drink more water than anything else, and to get moving more.

If all goes well this week, I would expect to be back in the 180s by next weekend.  For good!

One thing I've learned through this is that even WITH weight loss surgery, you're still going to struggle, you STILL have to make good choices and that six month "supervised" by nutritionist period before surgery to instill better habits is really really important.  During that 6 months sometime, I got into the habit of NOT drinking soda, and of not drinking during meals.  For the most part, I have stuck to that habit 99%.  I occasionally have a sip of soda and occasionally have a glass of wine with a meal, but 9.9 times out of 10, I don't.  It's not normal for me anymore.

The habits I need to instill a bit better -- as they were the first 4-6 weeks out of surgery -- is limiting my sweets to something maybe once a week -- instead of something little every day.

It's simple, people.  Calories in vs. calories out.  That's how to lose weight.  And by the way, if when you're losing weight you don't want your body to eat at your muscle, GET YOUR PROTEIN IN -- 80 to 100 grams per day.  MINIMUM.

So I am watching my calories again -- logging into my fitness pal daily to keep myself accountable and to get back on track to losing.  I promise myself I will be wearing shorts (proudly) this summer.
I think it is about time I do, living in Florida for 10+ years.  (shaking my head)